If something comes out in your study don't you think they will disfellowship you for it and never speak to you again?
That's the catch. I only plan on bringing up doctrines that they cannot explain or defend. I have already started to lay the foundation with my family members on certain points that are not defendable. To me, if my family knows where I stand and they themselves cannot defend particular doctrines, I can live with whatever punishment comes my way. AS LONG AS THEY KNOW THAT I STOOD UP FOR MY BELIEFS AND THAT IS THE REASON FOR MY OUSTING. I want them to see for themselves how I might be treated for simply questioning my faith. I just didn't want to have a quick draw with the elders and have the $hit come down so fast that my family wouldn't have time to react to what happened. I want to draw this out as much as I can. And if I get the axe because of my viewpoints, then there will be no need for me to explain to anyone as to why I was kicked out. It will save me the time in writing out a letter to my family and friends explaining what happened.