Hey folks, it's always interesting to read a thread in regards to the topic of: homosexuality.
One has to admit, despite the differentiating opinions, it certainly does create a debate.
Lifestyle choice? (Rayzorblade scratches his head) .
Unless one really and truly speaks from personal experience, then perhaps they know what they are talking about. To indicate the homosexuality is a chosen lifestyle, first thing that comes to mind is the fundamentalist mindset heavily entrenched in bible rhetoric.
If you haven't heard it before, well you'll hear it again, or probably already have.
Living the Lie, is the way to go. Trust me, I know all about it. Let me fill you in on a thing or two.
It is better to live a lie, regardless. I was encouraged to do so. How? Well as a young JW eager to please Jehovah, I did everything in my human power, as well as entrust Jehovah to help me with my decisions and find favour with him. I was encouraged to PRAY more; STUDY the bible more often; attend more meetings; go out in service more(I auxiliary pioneered plenty); seek the supervised association with the opposite sex.
Yes...doing everything to the T - in regards to living the Christian lifestyle. I did not cave in to any homosexual activity. To help me out with this matter, I was encouraged to have a healthy platonic relationship with a JW sister. See...'this will cure you', so I was told.
I got engaged to this sister. Great idea, eh? Well many Christians would agree, and have a parade as a result of my decision. But like most things that are against human nature, it was a recipe for disaster.
I studied the Bible, inside-out, back to front for years and years on end. ANYTHING, including prayer, service, study (fill in the blanks) to suppress my feelings. It was a living hell. The engagement was in full force, and the days were ticking away to a wedding day.
TORTURE...absolute torture.
See, this is when I made a choice: to be heterosexual, and it didn't work, and failed so miserably that is was beyond shameful.
Choice? puh-lease!
Lifestyle? I am still uncertain as to what this means. I am my own person, and I am myself, and I like to think I am a benevolent human being, who has friends from all walks of life.
Homosexual agenda. WHAT THE HELL is that?? Honestly, the only people I hear saying it are fundamentalist christians. For the life of me, I don't have a clue what it entails or means. Not sure if I want to either.
My mother said something to me one time when I told her about myself. What she said knocked me over. It was sort of to the effect of this:
'....Ray, you have to remember, straight people brought you into this world (my parents) and we are all individuals, regardless of our sexual orientation'.
My Mom is no prophet let me tell you, and what she said was no epiphany, she gave birth to me, and raised me, not as a homosexual, but as her child, her son.
The person who had the hardest time excepting it: myself.
Society at large is not particular kind towards this subject. That's no surprise.
But I can tell you this, you can argue the causes or and reasons as to why homosexuality exists, but all the grandstanding, all the proselizing and criticisms against it, will NEVER change the person who was born this way.
If you think it is a chosen lifestyle, you've got more than rocks in your head.
UNLESS...unless, YOU speak from experience (personal) regarding homosexuality, and you know what I mean by that, then you've completely lost me, as well as, other open-minded free thinkers on this planet.
I did my time with the bible and god. I punched out my time card. Rayzorblade has left the building. Working for god was a lesson in futility and emptiness, and perpetual unfulfillment.
That's the way I am. And NO...I don't wear women's clothes or speak with a lisp. Mouthy can attest to that.
Best wishes to all, even to those who would condemn me.
Kindest regards, Rayzorblade.
