You ARE making it. It's not easy, and you are struggling because it is challenging! Everyday you are doing it and every day that you finish s a win. The only real 'finish line' is death. Every day until then is going to be filled with challenge and joy and work and rest. Success and failures. Sadness sometimes and sometimes the joy will surround you until you can barely catch your breath. Find a balance and ask for help if you feel overwhelmed. Even if help is paid or from a church or agency or doctor.
Now you have a lot of burdens to sort out. Trust me, they will get sorted!