First of all, I'd just like to make it clear that I do not believe in "god". Whatever anger I have is not directed towards a fictional creature. My impatience is towards people who believe that they for whatever reason have been specifically blessed while others have not. You said:
I don’t know why small children have to suffer. There is evil in this world. I don’t know why God created satan knowing what havoc he would create.
And even though you can't answer these questions, you still love "god" because he's blessed YOU. Had he not blessed YOU, then you'd probably hate him. Have you ever thought that you have been able to get through hardships because you are a strong person? Isn't it possible to get through things on your own without aid from a supernatural force? Of course!
understand you have a wonderful husband. Cherish that. Realize that not everybody has that.
Trust me, I do cherish it. I sometimes think that I don't deserve him. But you know what? It is through my perserverence, and his patience that have kept us together, not "god's" blessing. I realize that everyone doesn't have what I have, but everyone DESERVES it. I think it would be rather unfair of "god" to bless some marriages, and not others, don't you?
evil exists. Where does that evil come from?
Evil exists because your "god" allows it, right? Well "god" created all things so it must've come from him.
Speaking about acts of "god":
These are horrible tragedies, and I don’t know why.
And you're okay with that? I'm not. If "god" is around couldn't he at least settle down the Earth? Floods, earthquakes, etc. could be stopped by "god" but he choose to let them take more lives. HOW LOVING?
Do you think that God created all diseases like cancer, aids, multiple sclerosis, cerebral palsy, sickle cell etc. to torture us, because we deserved it?
Well, no, because "god" doesn't exist. Some disease are due to mutations, etc. Correct me if I'm wrong but why did "god" allow these mutations? I mean people are born with some of these, is it fair to have children born this way while others such as yourself have near perfect babies at birth? HOW LOVING?
We all always blame others for destroying our lives, God, yes the JW org., our families (me included), the Government, etc. But what do we personally do to make it a bit better place for us, and for those around us.
Not true! I own all of my bad decisions. I don't blame anyone for things that I did wrong. I think that some people like to give credit to "god" when it is actually them that deserves the praise for their accomplishments.
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You did not address my analogy in the way that I wanted. Look at the analogy without using "god" as the father figure and answer the question as if everyone were human, not supernatural.
You said:
I don’t think God left us, we left Him.
Are we as humans judged collectively or individually? If we are judged individually, how dare you say "we" left him? I didn't leave "god" when I was 7, but it was obvious that no one was protecting me. The ones that sinned (Adam, Eve, Satan) deserve punishment, not me; and definitely not babies that die two days after birth, or people that are born into a life consumed with pain and grief. How have they left "god".
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There is no value in believing in God? So then what or who do we turn to? Ourselves, our friends, no-one?
-Sure there are values. For one thing you can attribute all good things to being blessed by "god" and all bad things are due to evil. It definitely lightens the load of self-responsibility.
-Who do we turn to? You're kidding right? For one thing, believe in yourself and your own power. Next anyone you are close to, husband, child, etc. Lastly, strangers can help such as doctors, therapists. Why can't people see that their fellow humans have good in them and are able to help. "God" often doesn't seem to be around when you need him.
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Yes what about NOW. What is happening in your life right now that is good. Yes your cousin abused you. I’m not belittling the grief you went through when you were a child, but this is not who you are now. I understand that you have a wonderful husband? That’s more than a lot of us have.
Yes, life is good now and it's not because of "god". It's because I won't 1) allow my life to be dictated by someone that never helped me out as a child and 2) I believe in myself.
can’t believe that a God that has created so many wonderful things, would even want to create evil, for me it wouldn’t make sense.
So you're basically saying there is no way to know for sure. God could be responsible for evil and you'll never really know. Maybe he created evil to keep the population low.
I wish God would protect small children, but how would that work; for how long do we protect them? Whom do we protect and whom don’t we protect.
How would "god" protect children? I don't know, he's all knowing, surely he could come up with something dontcha think? For how long?! FOREVER!!!
This is why I don't believe that there is someone who has the power to stop these things but doesn't. It is unfathomable to believe that an all powerful being doesn't protect his children.
When my kids do something wrong should I not punish them or should I just let them get away with things.
Punish them! Who was "god" punishing when I was being abused by my cousin?
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As for your analogy, there are flaws. For example:
All "god" want is?:
All he asked in return was for them to love him and their siblings, but he wanted his children to give it freely; what was in their hearts.
God asks for way more than that! You've never stated if you believe in the Bible but if you do then sure this statement was made in jest. I could lay down about a hundred specific requirements that "god" has other than to love him and his siblings.
This statement basically means that these "siblings" had no free will:
Some chose to do what ever they wanted[. . . .] They could do it on their own, nobody would tell them what to do. They got into a lot of trouble,
Why did the children that chose to leave their father get into trouble? Weren't some of them good, honest people who wanted to do things on their own? Why did their father have to be in their live in order to be successful? This isn't fair. It shows that the father deliberately doomed anyone who didn't was to be a part of his city. This isn't fair at all. Can't they love him living in the city's suburbs?
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I don’t believe in hell-if there is, I think it’s a separation from God, but we chose that.
We did? I don't remember casting my vote!