I just need to come to grips that I am mortal and this will all end for me one day and that is what sucks!
Perhaps this may help James... You have always been mortal even as a JW.
AT any time past you could have died from illness or accident. It could have all ended already, even IF you were to attain a resurrection later. And then, according to WT you would still be mortal. Eternal life is not immortality. The eternal life was at 'jehovahs' kindness and well, could be snuffed out anytime especially in that first 1000 years if you somehow failed to please the governing body....