I tried drugs when I was a teenager, hey it was the 60's, drugs, sex and rock-n-roll and I was a kid too stoopid to know any better. I also drank and always got drunk, I hated puking. The first time I had a joint I loved the high and the fact that I didn't get sick, but it scared me because I loved it too much. Growing up with an alcoholic father, well lets just say I didn't want to be like him. I do remembering during the years I experimented with drugs and alcohol that I got a clear understanding why my Dad drank, it numbed me out, I was different I felt I had no problems except how to pay and plan for my next high.
enigma's story really touched me and I'm sure this is how it starts for many drug addicts:
I and my former girlfriend really enjoyed it for awhile that is until we got addicted (well even when I was addicted i really enjoyed it), that is the point where you use every day for a couple of weeks you stop and the next morning your body hurts, you have a runny nose, basic cold symptons, you feel like crap and a nice 40mg oxycontin or a bag of H will make all your real physical pain go away so you use. When you get to that point you are ***ked, as hard as you try to stop the physical pain is just too much, I'm not even mentioning the psyhcological cravings you get thats another story. Well my life and my relationship went to sh**. Luckly I still have my house and my car, but other than that I lost my business, my girlfreind and most of my possesions. I am glad I finnaly woke up and realized where my life was going. Well I don't do any drugs anymore (don't even drink) I just started a new business and everything is looking up. I started using vicodin, oxy's, stuff like that and in three years was doing heroin! So if you have a addictive personality at all I would advise staying away from all opiates. By the way my drug use did not have anything to do with being a dub, I have been out of the borg since I was 13-14yr old and I am 23 now. I was in a motorcycle accident 3 years ago and got prescribed painkillers and it went downhill from there.
I knew I had an addictive personallity I was born into it and so I chose to quit and to stay away from mind altering drugs and pretty much alcohol too. I'm high on life, I love living clean and sober it's the best way to go!
Kate
PS I'm really glad to hear you are off drugs enigma please stay clean and sober you sound like you have so much to offer it would be a shame to waste your life on drugs.