Dawn, your observations and questioning are commendable.
"I believe in God and I believe that Jesus was his son." (bold added)
Beliefs, for me, don't work. Born from outside influences and persuasion, they are in their very nature deceptive because they are mind created concepts that are fluid and prone to change. Here, on this forum especially, I think we can all agree to having experienced this. Beliefs, are often tightly linked to how, when and where we were born and raised. They are simply other peoples ideas that are fed to us. What then, is not just someone else's idea??? Where is Truth to be found? I don't "believe" I am alive. I know undeniable and unequivocally. My view of reality may indeed be distorted and confused. But, there is consciousness, no question. Even without thought, in the silence, there is exquisite awareness Most all religious "beliefs" have at their root the instruction to go within for Truth (though such dictums are often well hidden over time); to go deep into consciousness; deeper than the ever-changing intellectual beliefs, ideas and concepts at the surface, into the center of our being. Into That, which is truly certain, Real and unquestionable. Wisdom, throughout history has pointed here, within. What is found here, only you can experience. Once it is written about and read by another, it becomes simply a belief; and sooner or later someone will make a religion out of it. We can not know Truth as we know objective things, or believe in Truth. Belief in Truth is not Truth. We can only BE Truth. As I like to often say "God, is not so tiny as to be absent from where you are". JamesT