I am in such a weird freakin mood

by SheilaM 14 Replies latest jw friends

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  SheilaM

  I just can't deal with Anthony being gone and knowing how hard bootcamp is. Do you KNOW they make them urp and then dive into it????? Neither did I <dang crying again> They say it's so if their buddy gets blown to bits they will be accustomed to it. Anthony washed his hands like a freakin surgeon now he is diving in puke. I am just beside myself with worry and this black cloud of sadness. I can't even articulate how horrible it is to KNOW that I HAVE to accept this.

  Maybe if I got a letter I would feel better but we just have gotten the form letter. I am so sorry for whining but I just know I have so much I could do, need to do but I just can't .

  Took me all freaking week to just run the one errand that Thunder wanted me to.

  Well, I will exit my pity potty now. Thanks for listening
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  outnfree

  ((((((((((((Sheila)))))))))))),

  It's tough to let go, isn't it? My eldest went away to university last fall and I missed her terribly! Felt a big, gaping hole in my heart... I know that's not the same as shipping your son off to boot camp, but I'm empathizing here. They have huge adjustments to make, but so do we at home. You WILL feel better when you hear from him. Just know that he's missing you, too, for sure! And, of course, that he's doing what he wants, hard as that is to accept.

  Hugs again,

  outnfree
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  wednesday

  When my son went to KoSoVo, i do not believe i slept well the entire time. When he finally told me the food made haim sick and he'd vomit, and lost 30#, i felt like crawling into a ball on the floor.When he told me that they tired on the air masks by being in a room ao toxic fumes(to se if thsy worked) i cringed, and felt ill. Most of what he told me , he told me after he got home, and i am so gratteful, b/c i would have got on a plane a kicked some peoples' a**. He said if they don't tke it like a man-the are called mommy's boys or worse, and taunted.

  It was not easy. Keep your chin up, and try and let it be.(sigh)
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  Angharad

  ((((Shiela & Thunder ))))))
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  LyinEyes

  Sheila I think I can understand how you are feeling. Even thou it breaks your heart as a mom to think of what your son is going thru,,,,, he is doing what his heart has lead him to do. He is going to be fine, and no doubt he was prepared for the hardships of it all, probably seeing it as the biggest challange of his life. I am sure he is proud to have a mom and dad like you two , who support him even thou your heart is breaking, missing and worrying about him.

  My son is 16 and the apron strings are slowly cutting away for me and it breaks my heart. I can see already that he is not my little man anymore , he will always be my baby but he is growing up and I don't really like it. But I guess that is what they have to do to be men ya know. I miss the way he was when he was 12 , before the teen years hit. But I hold those memories in my heart and every now and then, he shows me he is still my baby.

  (((((((( hugs Sheila))))))))))))
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  SheilaM

  Thank you all, I wish I could say things are better. Thunder went grocery shopping and almost cried when he had to buy a half-gallon of milk he has bought gallons for over 20 years. WE still have not received a letter and I cry everytime there isn't one in the mailbox. I hope things get better mayboe once I hear something.

  Sheila
  Semper Fi
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  StinkyPantz

  ((Sheila))
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  DJ

  ((((((((Sheila))))))))) My little boy is only 6. I think I'll go hug him and get off this computer and play cars or something with him. Thanks for the reminder..love, dj
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  SheilaM

  DJ if I could do it over there are so many things I would put off to play or do with my kids. They will be gone, it's like you turn around and they are grown. Damn all those wasted meetings and service
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  jgnat

  Your boy is lucky to have a mom who loves him so much. A very lucky boy. Would you really want the pain to go away, if it meant you did not care so much? Some pain can be borne sweetly.