My shunning was like a roller coaster...sometimes I was completley and udderly ignored with looks of repulsion and disgust to JW's coming up to me and saying "Dood, hope to see you back soon we miss you" and this was at an assembly. So whatever, I mean I have been re-instated for about 6 years but haven't been to the meetings for the last 2. If I remotely think about going with my wife and 3 kids (who go about 4 times a month) I become shaky, full of anxiety and visibly shaken. When I drop them off at the hall, I can't get out of there fast enough...
So after being df'd a year I wanted to come back. I hit every meeting for 2 years, applying every 3 months only to be turned down...I think overall I applied for reinstatement 6 times before I was accepted back. But by that time I was totally enlightened and in tune with their bull. It took being DF'd and reinstated to figure out that there were something up. Taking time away from it, from the jargon and the lingo and all that crap REALLY helps...
Now the only thing I have to get used to is every frickin person whom I thought was a 'friend' in the truth is begging me to come back...My real friends that I have couldn't give two shits about wether or not I go to church, when the next eclipse is to take place, if the pope will die this year..reality outside of the 'dubs is refreshing. Getting shunned was a nightmare. I can't go back because of this..the feeling of being hated and then the next day "HEY BUDDY GOOD TO SEE YOU BACK!!!"
Ahhhhh...kiss my white butt.