I have read alot on this site for a while and just have been absorbing it as I make my way.
One thing I noticed was alot said about abuse of children... I experienced the reverse...false stories told..believed by elders because of hidden agenda and 20+ years as special pioneers ..etc. etc. as of no count and belief in a new publisher destroyed our lives and children's lives. The horror never stops ...some of our family is disassociated...some disfellowshipped...some inactive...some active..some on a fence...mostly because of one or two elders and the misapplication of their power and lack of love to our family. With our record of service the WTS never giving us the benefit of even thank you.... What a mess.....
I have often wondered at the saying "where do you go away too" but, now I wonder more and more how can I go back too.....
I don't have the hate that I see some have on this site..not the gross put downs of the ones that are still active...I also do not feel that I have left Jehovah and the love of the Christ...I just wish there was someplace that I could enjoy the truth of christian freedom to worship my God without all the other stuff that goes on.
First time I have expressed this to anyone besides my husband but, maybe there is an answer or maybe I already have it just not wanting to see it....
Maggie