@jehovaxx:
I absolutely agree that "Almost certainly there is more to it."
I am where I am. And you are where you are. Neither of us has all the answers.
With all due respect, isn't being an agnostic a form of "fence sitting"?
Don't get me wrong, I was a fence-sitter for decades. Including 19 years when I was disfellowshipped out of the religion/snare/racket and felt enough freedom to do some research.
Ray Franz's book was not enough to completely unlock my mind. It only deepened the doubts about what JWs were selling.
But I was still mind trapped. If religion came up during that time I always pointed people towards JW's as being "The True Religion" even as I told them they should not look at me, I was a bad example of a witness, but one day I was going back.
I was in a mind loop for years over 4 things:
1. Jehovah's witnesses stand on neutrality and not going to war.
2. Jehovah's witnesses preaching work, reaching the ENTIRE inhabited earth.
3. They don't take money. The message is offered freely. They only accept contributions.
4. The "Where else would I go" canard I mentioned earlier.
I know now that all 4 of those above things were based on lies or at the very least many shades of grey.
So yes, as said before, I dumped the religion but not the faith in the Bible's promise.
You are interesting to me because you are still a member in good standing, but secretly don't believe a word of it.
Can I ask? Are you a publisher, pioneer, MS, or Elder? If you hold a "position of responsibility" (as they like to call it) how do you square that with your inner beliefs?
Are you still in because of family and friends? I can certainly relate to that.
I pioneered briefly when I was a teen. That was back in the JW roll-up to 1975. My parents convinced me to quit high school at 16 to pioneer. Within 2 weeks I absolutely hated it. I ended up going back and finishing high school.
I was never a servant or an Elder. I came close a couple of times to Ministerial Servant (the Eders approached me) but immediately both times pulled back on meeting attendance and service hours because I wanted no part of it. I NEVER wanted to sit in judgement of others, even from a young age. Why would anyone willingly have that hanging over their heads, it they take the appointment as an Elder or MS as seriously as they should? It was not for me.
I'm meandering a bit here.
But in summary, yes, I still cling to the Bible. And yes, I might be wrong in doing so.
Are you familiar with Pascal's wager?
Cheers