How many here have heard a song that touched or shaken your soul ?
I was listening to Christina Aguilera's song " I'm Okay" and shivered. Except it is not my father it is my mother. An tears ran down my face because I remember much more than my sisters do and it still brings pain. My sisters are struggling with this pain still and it had the power (an still does to a point to divide us).
Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK
Her new album "Stripped" is just that. She has a few raw songs that hit many cords.
Fighter
After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Soar:
When they push when they pull,
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change,
Can you lift your head high
And stay strong
Will you give up, give in,
When your heart's crying out
That it's wrong
Will you love you for you
At the end of it all
In life, there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurity
Seems to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgettin' that
The one thing we should know is
Chorus-
Don't be scared to fly alone,
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door
Its in your hands,
The world is yours
Don't hold back and always know,
All the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for,
Spread your wings and soar
The boy who wonders is he
Good enough for them
Keeps tryin' to please 'em all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there the girl who thinks
She'll never ever be good enough for him
Keeps tryin' to change
And that's a game she'll never win
Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities
Seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing
We should know is
Chorus
In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her own reflection
Now foreign to her after all these years
All of her life she has tried
To be something beside herself
Now time has passed
And she's ended up someone
Else with regret
What is it in us that makes us feel
The need to keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be
Repeat Chorus 2x
We all go through things some good and some horrid. Sometimes we can pull through alone and some times we need to be reminded.. we are never truly alone.
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