I miss you so much I just can’t say how much I hurt inside. I think back to when I was just a child and how you gave me the food from your plate when there wasn’t enough for each of us to have dinner. You always put me first, your joy in life came from seeing me happy, knowing I was safe and I had everything you could give me.
I miss doing my homework with you, the way you taught me to draw and how much confidence you always had in me and I still remember how you gave and gave until you had nothing more to give me. I can never repay you I could never give enough in return. You were the kindest person I ever knew. As I sit here and look at your photo with tears streaming down my cheeks - I never knew when the day would come when I would lose you forever.
Becoming an adult was all I ever wanted to do when I was growing up. I never thought about why I just knew I wanted to grow up, get married and have kids. Once all that happened and I had everything I thought I wanted, I realized that it wasn't as easy to maintain as I had thought. Now you’re gone and my heart is heavy with such sadness and sense of the most incredible void I have ever experienced in my life.
Even though I know I will never see you again I just keep telling myself I wish I had told you many more times than I did that “I loved you”. I miss you more with every minute that passes. I don't know how it will ever get better. I do know that I promised you that I would take care of myself and continue with everything you taught me.
Jack