I have a question - as a young child, I sensed 'something' long before I could be indoctrinated....why?
.....a bit of background..
Both my parents were anti-religion and so were their kind and decent family/ friends - they'd be horrified to read some of the posts here.....the hatred, nastiness,
My Dad leant towards an agnostic way of thinking, yet his words and way of life were exemplary - he would have 'died' spiritually if he had been a 'JW' man. They would have killed him.
I suppose that was part of my final wake up re the witnesses, why had the God the JWs had made up , want to destroy the decent and kindly folk who made up my family, because when I lived with the 'types' who made up the congregations, I found it was full of horrible people, dressed up to look nice, to act nice but emotionally immature, lacking loyalty to anything but their ever changing 'God'
So, I've been burnt - but...I remain locked in that early childhood sense of the universe ...I choose to believe in the wonderous. When I was yet reading Jack and Jill books, I grasped or in my inner world got hold of the concept of time as in eternity.
I'm going to trust 'me' - trust my heart and sense of the universe.
Juan, I'm at peace tuning into a loving, divine Supernatural power.
Your OP asked the question - I can't beat you over the head with the answer - it's your journey after all.
I feel it's my job to seek, my job to refine and not be the passive receiver of information that gives me the heads up that God exists.
I'm a searcher, a hopeful and believing searcher. If I am nothing more than an evolved organism, then I have no right or place to understand the concept of eternity, or self sacrificing love, especially when acts of love are secret to me, do not help me in my daily existence but simply build my spiritual sense of joy.