Why were we ever a JW? Were we mad? We must have been ...
Well, my excuse is that I knew nothing else. I was a born in. That was the world and what I was indoctrinated to believe.
Since I've left I have to admit I have a hard time respecting anyone who "came in to the truth". It seems like they had all the advantages of being able to research things and the benefit of a non-cult existence to measure things against and yet some people fell for it. Looking back, I think I might have thought they were idiots even when I was still in ... possibly my inner sense screaming at me. There just always seemed to be something wrong with them. Why would anyone fall for the WTS message?
But of course they do. That's what religions and all cults are good at - recruiting people, sounding legit, making some sense, appearing to be an answer. Heck, they appear to be THE answer if you only listen to their viewpoint.
And I thought ... I was there because someone in our family, in the past, was just like them.
For whatever reason, who knows what was going on in their life, they were searching for answers and of course were easy pickings to some salesman only too quick to sell the promises of the WTS to them. Then years later, I was born and it became my religion of birth.
It's harder to be quite so dismissive or judgemental when it's our own flesh and blood, someone we might have known and loved ... a parent, a grand-parent, maybe even a great-grandparent.
They signed up for a different religion that might have been more benign at that stage and there wasn't the free access to information that there is now. I try to imagine what life was like 100 years ago, no internet, no TV, some radio, the odd newspaper with week-old events in it.
Could something small have changed the course of your life? Perhaps a knock at the door unheard over the whistle of a kettle and a WatchTower never received, never read and never believed.
Then who would I have been I wonder?
We'll never know, the die is cast and when the curtain goes up we dangle like marionnettes and follow the path we're put upon until we figure out how to untie or cut the strings that bind us.
I find myself looking back more with pity than anger. I feel sorry for whoever brought the WTS into our families life. It's unlikely they did it maliciously and they were seeking to do the best thing for their family and their children. They failed, but then how many people really succeed at that. Many manage to do the worst for their offspring so there is something to be thankful for that we are not born elsewhere.
How about you? Are you an idiot or the offspring of past idiots?