Never even made it to MS. Reason is simple: When I was about 11 years old, I remember attending a convention where the district overseer, Leonce Crepeau, ridiculed a man who had gone to the media saying he waisted 20 years of his life in the JWs religion. He said: “20 years! 20 YEARS! Clearly, if it took him 20 years to realize he was in the wrong place, he must've been profoundly stupid!” Everyone in the audience were laughing, including me. But at the same time, I promised myself to research all of my doubts and questions before I would ever reach out for privileges such as MS or Elder.
Forward many years later, I am finally married and my life is settled enough for me to reach out for such privileges. Hence, I started researching all of the doubts that had followed me through the years. In the process, learned TTATT and felt it was impossible to reach out. I would have felt hypocritical to impose or teach things that I didn’t believe myself.
Still, I stayed for another 10 years. Through all these years, I was trying to reason myself into reaching out... but never could. I knew I was doing logical gymnastic in order to please people around me and it wasn’t right.
When my kids got old enough to understand what was being said at the hall, that is when I decided it was enough. I couldn’t let my kids be exposed to their teachings. So I left.