Hello PIMOJW
Welcome to the forum. Can't add anything to what has already been posted however, what I will say is take your time. I was very anxious when I first clicked the link to an 'apostate website' ... JW's definition, not mine ... let alone make postings.
As I have personally found out, you will eventually let go of the Fear, Obligation, Guilt (FOG) and will feel so much at ease with yourself.
I hope that your immediate family will, in time, see through the Org for what it truly is.
Looking forward to reading your postings, and of your experiences, in due course.