Losing my Religion

yxl1

I’ve always considered myself a Christian. Even before I was roped into the world of Dubs at the age of 7, I attended a Baptist church. It never entered my mind that the Bible wasn’t Gods word and that Jesus was or wasn’t the Son of God. Even spending 15 years as a Jehovah’s wickedness (As my Auntie used to call them) I always had respect for almost all Christian religions.

Recently I decided to question my faith. I think it was a combination of conversations on this forum, my children asking me questions about life and death and recent press announcements regarding Christianity and homosexuality. I borrowed a “proper” bible from a friend, sat down and over two months read the thing from cover to cover. Genesis to Revelations. A God of vengeance, hatred and contradiction to a God that displays no logic at all.

Strangely, for the first time in my life, God came alive. I didn’t look for this to happen, it just hit me like a hammer. All the questions I had up to this point were answered in a way that the questions no longer seemed important. And for the first time I can now say that I am no longer a Christian. If anything the bible had detracted my attention away from God. It is nothing more than supernatural mythology that has been studied, twisted and used to control and abuse. I found myself laughing out loud at some of the absurdities found within its pages.

When I told my wife of my recent thoughts, she admitted that she was a little concerned. She conciders herself Christian and lives her life accordingly. Initially I found her concern rather strange, until she asked me if I believed in God. “I’d be a stupid man not to believe in God” was my answer. I explained that I felt no reason to follow ancient mythology, their codes and writings, when God has provided us with so much more. I don’t need a rulebook to tell me what is right and wrong. That in itself is a gift from God. Look around. Look at creation. Look at the heavens at night. Look at our Children. Look at the discovery’s of science. These things say more to me about our creator than any book, any religion or any man could.

I now truly do love my God for the first time in my life. Sorry for rambling.

yxl1

StinkyPantz

I did a similar thing. I read the Bible cover to cover and realized how convoluted it was. I consider myself agnostic because I have no proof of a god of any sort.

What do you mean by this statement though?:

She conciders herself Christian and lives her life accordingly.

By the way, I am glad that you are now content in your beliefs. I don't think I ever will be.

yxl1

What do you mean by this statement though?:

She conciders herself Christian and lives her life accordingly

Stink,

She follows the teachings of Christ, according to the NT. Prays to him, and believes in some form of afterlife.

I consider myself agnostic because I have no proof of a god of any sort.

I couldnt follow that path. To me, proof of God is all around us. The laws/rules of science prove to me of the existance of a creator.

Hamas

Is that you in the corner ?

Is that you in the spot-light, losing your religion ?

Been there, my friend.

Good luck.

gumby

yxl1,

First of all......do not listen to StinkyPants. She will luv you then leave you like a trick in a house of illrepute.......damn her!

You sound like a clone of myself.........and probably millions of others. Havind a belief and leaving that belief, then trusting the bible, then abondoning the bible and wondering who and where the heck God is. Thats where I am at also. I don't think all of us speaking at this time will know real soon either and that kinda sucks.

Question for you:...Did you get pissed off ALL OVER AGAIN when you also found out the bible to be fallacious?

Gumby

StinkyPantz

yxl1-

I couldnt follow that path. To me, proof of God is all around us. The laws/rules of science prove to me of the existance of a creator.

I disagree with you whole-heartedly; but isn't it cool that we can do so and still love each other and talk and be friends?

Gumby-

First of all......do not listen to StinkyPants. She will luv you then leave you like a trick in a house of illrepute.......damn her!

Hey!!

I love you still. . . .

Special K

yx1i

It does sound to me that you have lost religion..

But, hey,..it sound even greater that you found GOD.

special k

xjw_b12

yxl1 Good post. I like this when you said:

“I’d be a stupid man not to believe in God” was my answer. I explained that I felt no reason to follow ancient mythology, their codes and writings, when God has provided us with so much more. I don’t need a rulebook to tell me what is right and wrong. That in itself is a gift from God. Look around. Look at creation. Look at the heavens at night. Look at our Children. Look at the discovery’s of science. These things say more to me about our creator than any book, any religion or any man could.

Therefore the contradiction.....makes you want to pull your hair out.

I was going to respond more in depth until I read Gumby's post where he said:

You sound like a clone of myself.........and probably millions of others. Having a belief and leaving that belief, then trusting the bible, then abondoning the bible and wondering who and where the heck God is. Thats where I am at also. I don't think all of us speaking at this time will know real soon either and that kinda sucks.

Very well put.

Did you get pissed off ALL OVER AGAIN when you also found out the bible to be fallacious?

Once you have realized that the religion you have poured your heart and soul into over the course of your life is a falicy, you begin to question EVERYTHING ! Your eyes have been opened, and you are not going to believe anything that someone else tells you to. You take responsibility for your own destiny as it were.

The pendulum has swung from the left to the right...............where will it stop?

Makena1

X - good post. I am happy that you have found some answers that work for you. I am at a similar point - the bible and religious interpretation of it leaves me cold.

However, I still believe there is a creative source out there - admiring the beauty and order in the universe is my form of prayer at the moment.

If I "get" religion again, it will mirror my current stock market philosphy, i.e., I will get on board if I see a clear trend to the upside.

All best,

Mak

yxl1

Did you get pissed off ALL OVER AGAIN when you also found out the bible to be fallacious?

No. I'm still angry at the Dubs, but for different reasons. I probably should be a little pissed when I came to the conclusion that the Bible was just a story book, but it just didnt seem to matter anymore. I cant really explain it, but its just not important to me anymore.

I disagree with you whole-heartedly; but isn't it cool that we can do so and still love each other and talk and be friends?

Agreed. Also, wouldnt it be a little dull if we were all the same?

The pendulum has swung from the left to the right...............where will it stop?

Never, hopefully.

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