No more anti-depressants!!! I am so much happier..and allot more naughtier..hmmmm I wonder if that's what's making me happy? What was the question?
Are You A Happier Person Than When You Were In The "Truth"?
by minimus 48 Replies latest jw friends
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smack
yep, take away the guilt and there ya have a happy person.
Steve
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Singing Man
>>> No more anti-depressants!!! I am so much happier..and allot more naughtier..hmmmm I wonder if that's what's making me happy? What was the question? <<< Oh she is funny I liked that one. I share her feelings. Everyone I have spoke to and had them be honest with me said they felt depressed most of the time being a Dub. I wonder if its because of amagedon dread and feeling as if you can't do enough, its the do it or die out look.
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Blueblades
Yes.I will be so much more happier when we move away from where we live now.We have to tie up a few things first ,then we will move away from the brothers and sisters that now see us every day and half smile at us when they see us.
Blueblades
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LeslieV
I would say for myself I am more content with my life. I now feel like an active participant in this life instead of waiting for participating in the "new world."
I have to say I miss some of my family and people that were my friends, but I am a much nicer person now than I ever was as a JW. I am thankful for that change of personality that has made me happier.
Leslie
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Elsewhere
No more anti-depressants!!!
Very true for me too! I was on two of them and going through therapy to keep me from using a gun, my brains and my ceiling to create a new form of "performance art".
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DanTheMan
Well, I'm sure the gossipy JW's I used to associate with are absolutely certain that I'm miserable and have gone off the deep end...LOL
I don't know that I'm happier. Leaving JW's and learning the truth about "the truth" has been more humbling than anything. I used to think I was sooo special, and converting to JW's, with all the of the accompanying attention and love bombing and "God must have looked down and realized you had a good heart" stuff, gave me the confirmation of my imagined specialness that I so desparately craved.
So, unlike persons raised in the troof, I was one of the converts with serious personality issues seeking a refuge from reality and unearned adoration from a social community. JWism was my drug of choice, and it worked for many years, until I just couldn't stand it anymore.
So now I'm confronting all of the personality issues and crap that JWism masked. And it is very painful. I was 22 when I converted, but emotionally I was stuck in early adolescence. Now at 32, after many hits of the snooze button, I'm finally waking up to the reality of adult life, and lamenting the lost opportunities and stupid sh*t I've done, and hoping that this crazy world will give me at least a few more years of life to redeem myself.
Dan, probably-reveals-more-about-himself-on-this-board-than-people-care-to-know class
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Flowerpetal
Elsewhere:
Very true for me too! I was on two of them and going through therapy to keep me from using a gun, my brains and my ceiling to create a new form of "performance art".
I was just wondering......how do therapists view the beliefs or religion of JWs? I mean, you probably have to unload a lot of baggage at therapy sessions....do any of them offer an opinion?
I know a sister who, when she was d'fd, needed support from somehwere, so all the time she was "outside" of the cong. she went to a psychiatrist. Of course, she had other issues too. She was always suicide prone--and I don't know her that well, but I am just now wondering if it is because she was raised by her grandmother who was a witness. The grandmother is dead now, and claimed to be of the anointed.
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Flowerpetal
I was always a happy person. A lot of you would probably hate me because I am one of those cheery types that wake up in a good mood and always says "good morning!"
But, now that I am mostly mentally free of the borg, I feel like I can listen to the meetings with a very critical eye and logical thought, and pick out a lot of discrepancies in the material that is presented at the meetings.
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LeslieV
Dan I really enjoyed your post!!! I love this statement " JW'ism was my drug of choice." I can relate to this. I also was converted to the JW's when I was 18. I also enjoyed the feeling of "being special, chosen by God." I used to love it when they would quote "Jeh is moving to and fro throughout the earth finding those who's heart is complete towards him." You have expressed exactly what I felt.
Personally I am not proud of my behavior as a JW. I was the typical JW elder's wife. Judgmental etc. I am much happier now that I have learned compassion for others.
Leslie