Hello CC:
A warm welcome to you. You will find a wealth of friendship, encouragement and knowledge here as I have. I also started 'lurking' here for awhile before I had the courage to make my first post.
I too am in the same position of not going to meetings but can't reveal my identity because of family still "blinded". If I was one of those JWs you mentioned that come here to read about us, I'd be quite concerned of not only being found out, but of my own spirituality. How can anyone be proud of ignoring the GB's warnings to stay away from these sites and still consider themselve a true JW?
However, if any JW lurkers are here because they too have hidden doubts, and want some answers, I say "WELCOME" to you all. Here is where you'll find out the real facts and things the WTS has kept hidden for so long.
My world of JW'dum came to an end when I had serious doubts about the "spirit-guidance" of the GB when they kept flip-flopping back and forth on important issues. Then when I read C of C book, I was in shock for awhile. I'm now reading the "In Search of Christian Freedom" and have "Apocalypse Delayed" to read next.
I have so much I want to re-think and find what seems right to me.
As for the holidays?....like everyone says...the guilt passes when you see the foolishness in all we've been taught as "the word of God". I received my first "Mother's Day" cards and wishes this year, and what a warm and wonderful feeling it was from such a small gesture. To me it was a HUGE gesture of love.
Anyway...welcome again and enjoy. Looking forward to more from you.
Had Enough