Latte you sound just like my wife. Nina used to have that same air of fatigue about her as well as being seriously stressed out. She works full-time and to fight rush hour traffic home, make dinner, get 2 small children bathed and dressed for the meeting, come home at 10:00 p.m. on a school night and go to bed exhausted at midnight (remember those dinner dishes and what about the laundry?), well it's no wonder she was exhausted.
The demands the Witnesses place on people is cruel and unloving.
Latte, the jw lifestyle is hazardous to anyone's health. That treadmill feeling is awful. I'm sure I was close to a couple of nervous breakdowns. There were times I wished I could be sick or one of the kids to be sick just so I would have an excuse not to go to a meeting, and then Saturdays when you wished you could sleep in to catch up on your sleep, you had the dreaded feeling of going out in service, and then Sunday, you wished the alarm clock wouldn't work that particular day, and on and on.