mole,
I've been following your posts here.
I'm sorry to hear that you may soon face the axe and be shunned from your family.
I'm happy to hear that you may soon face the axe and be shunned from the organization.
From what others have said here, looking back to when they were DF'd was the best thing that could have ever happened to them.
I wouldn't know that yet. My time has not yet come.
At least you are escaping in your thirties, and not looking back at age 65 or more and wishing that you had made a move to get out way back when.
You are taking a bold stand. You are not weak for doing so, but rather, strong for taking the only option for one who is in tune with their conscience and moral fiber.
I would fail to see why any woman would find such a self assured man unatttractive.
Besides; I hear chicks dig apostates!
Winston.