by ScoobySnax 39 Replies latest jw friends
Scooby,
I don't understand your indecision, I will be the first to admit it.
However, if you feel the need, go back to the KH (as much as it give me the shivers, it's up to you). Good luck, sweetie, and goddess bless - I hope you feel as creeped out as I know I would.
xo
tal
((((((((((((Scooby)))))))))))) Do what you must. Just remember, no matter what, I will still be your friend.
or just slink away thinking "I can't live up to this anymore" I envy both Witnesses who are full time, for their faithfulness
This is the problem.
Dubs never feel they are quite cutting it.....or can never cut it in the way they should. I was one of those. I always had a bad habit of somekind that was frowned upon, or prohibited. I kicked myself in the ass for many years. It's good to know now I can still be a good guy and have a bad habit.
As for those faithful you envy scoob.......you'd be surprised how many have some 'other" type of problem and they too are not as faithful as they purport. Some can live straight lives and never want to do "bad things" Other stuggle with witness defined.....bad things. Even Jesus said it was what came out of a persons mouth was what defiled him.....not what went in. If your a good person.....then relax.
I hate to see you beat yourself up. You don't need it.
Gumby
Scooby, you gotta do whatcha gotta do. It's your choice and I respect your choice.
Guest 77
Everyone has their own life to live and no one decision is right for everyone.
I dont know what you are 'giving the jw's one more chance' to do..... but if you feel you need to do it then hopefully you will do it knowing if it doesnt work out a whole lotta people here got your back....
yikes the whole idea of sitting in a kh 3 times a week listening to that BOOOORINGG stuff gives me the willies!
I was inactive once before and went back...was I stupid. Don't take as long as I did to discover that, Scoob.
Come back any time.
Blondie
Scooby, I really wish you would check your pm's. Thanks
Scoob, I think you should try to go back. Give yourself one more shot at it. It's clear you are wrestling with this issue, and a couple of others as well. And really if the Witnesses aren't right, it is kind of scary, isn't it?
I have a terrible fear of failure, it drives me to stick my neck out and to keep trying in the face of failure. I also have a terrible fear of success, in that I'm afraid that if I write a novel it will be published, or if I have a career I'll advance. I'm afraid of success because then I don't have any excuses anymore. I won't have anything to blame on why I'm not more than I am. I see the same thing in you.
You know in your gut who you are, and where you need to be. But it's really quite frightening to actually reach out for it, isn't it? It would mean going against what others have told you is right. It would mean standing up on your own and instead saying "THIS is right". And so I say go back to the meetings. You've changed since you left and I think you would find they have changed as well. You must prove to yourself once and for all who and what you are meant to be in the life. Going back is one way to determine that.
But before you go back, do me a favour. Read, with an open mind, these three threads. After you read them, consider the implications. And then, as I've said above, go back to the meetings. Try it on, like a new suit. If it fits you'll know. If it doesn't, you'll know. Keep an open mind, and don't force it one way or the other. Anyway, read this for me:
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/5466/1.ashx
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/7913/1.ashx
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/10417/1.ashx
Chris
Scoob,
Do what you think is right. It's important that you find out for yourself which way your life needs to go. It's not up to anyone on this board to tell you not to go, or whatever...
I hope that you'll still come here and post every now and then and let us know how youre doing. YOu don't have to talk about JW stuff - just say hello. We won't try to talk you out of your decision.
In any event, good luck to you, friend. Remember that truth will set you free. It always has.
Shamus.
WOW, Chris, you know, your kids are going to grow up to be wonder people. The reason being, they have you as their father. I wish my father would have been like you. Had he been, I may have turned out to be a better person. I admire you.
