I started studying with the JWs in September of 1974. I was baptized on July 4, 1975 at the age of 18. The elder I studied with had me utterly convinced that Armageddon was going to occur in 1975. The air in my Kingdom Hall was so thick with anticipation you could cut it with a knife. One elderly sister refused life-saving medical treatment because she was so certain that Armageddon was on the horizon. A brother in my congregation refused dental care for the same reason. One of the university-educated elders in my congregation refused a high-paying promotion, opting instead to quit his job and instead take a part-time minimum wage position so he could devote more time to pioneering.
While I was encouraged to study and get baptized as quickly as possible to save myself, I also believed I was being handed a sacred trust -- that by going door to door, I was handed the God-given blessing to dispense immortality to others. I took my commission seriously, and preached at every opportunity.
I feel pity for those (like me) who fell for the 1975 prediction hook, line, and sinker. The ones I knew were genuine in their desire to help others attain immortality, as well as save themselves and their families. We had no idea we were being duped, so strong was the Society's mind control methods.
I hold the WTBTS accountable for the lives lost or ruined by their demand that we believe their false predictions. The blood of the countless individuals who lost their lives in false expectation of the coming of the Great Tribulation is on their hands.