Quote from Pale.Emperor:
I want nothing to do with anything christian or Jesus
This seems to be the sentiment expressed by quite a number of XJws. Has it occurred to anyone that this may in fact be the true purpose of the WTBorg Inc? Their teachings and beliefs are very far removed from the Agape Love which is the essence of the Real Gospel.
In any case, our Father and His Son fully comprehend such feelings and they are not sinful. As a matter of fact, most who eventually come to a healthy understanding of The Way experienced similar feelings or even worse. Many admit to actually having hatred for the God of the Bible for a period of time.
It is good that your former wife is awakening. That you yourself have the feelings you've expressed is also a good thing too. You'll see in due time...
It seems that we all come to experience the things we need to work through in order to round out our "education" in this lifetime. Your heart is in the right place.