An update and an apology to new and old

by Lady Lee 36 Replies latest jw friends

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  Lady Lee

  First the update.

  I haven't been myself lately. Those of you know know me have probably noticed. I haven't been posting very much. And this is in part due to my health problems and how they are affecting me.

  I got those $400 orthotics to put in my shoes. I felt they supported the feet better but I have been waking up at night in terrible pain and not been able to get to sleep for a couple of hours. Up until now I haven't been on any prescibed medications. Between the pain and the lack of sleep I've just been trying to cope and it has been wearing me down.

  The orthotics went back last week and I have ordered another pair. Maybe these will be better but I doubt it. If not I can get a refund if I return them within a month of trying them. That should give me enough time to see if they will give me some relief.

  My doctor has finally prescibed something for the pain. He said it should also help the sleeping and the depression. This is a big step for me to take these meds. After everything I have been through regarding the abuse and the JWs I have never been on antidepressants.

  But I think it is time to try it.If it doesn't work I can try other options.

  I have found a couple of e-lists for people who suffer from chronic pain. As a result I have talked to a couple of people with very similar problems as well as a couple of people here. From what I am learning this isn't going to go away. The most I am hoping for is that it won't get worse.

  My apology to the new ones I have not welcomed and to those who have been around a while and are having their own problems.

  I love being here and love the friendship and support offered and given. I have no plans to leave. You can't get rid of me that easy

  Lee
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  jgnat

  My dear, I have noticed you are around when it really matters. I can't imagine how wearing it is to have pain all the time. I hope you start feeling better soon.
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  onacruse

  ((((((((Lee))))))))

  I've been a bit out-of-sorts these last few weeks too...chronic pain (of body or heart) is a grind on the soul.

  Glad you're hanging tough, dear lady!

  This too shall pass.

  Craig
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  nilfun

  I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope that the treatments you are trying will help you will feel some relief from this very soon.

  ((LL))
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  FlyingHighNow

  Lady,

  Glad you are sharing your troubles with us. I hope this pain will ease up and that you will be back 100% eventually. No matter what, please don't stop leaning on us. We collectively have a mighty big shoulder and an even bigger heart.

  Heather
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  Gopher

  It's good to have you around here, no matter what level of posts you're able to contribute. No apology necessary.

  As far the orthotics go, that can be a very tricky thing. Sometimes the cure is worse than the ailment. I hope your next pair won't be so painful.

  Best wishes on your medication program. Hopefully it'll help you feel better than you've been for a long time.
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  wednesday

  LL, i am so sorry for your pain. I truly do understand, b/c of severe back problems, and recenlty having shoulder surgery , well i have been on pain meds for some time now. I use the opitates, and don't apoligize to anyone for taking them. my doc tried other things first, but it finally came down to i just could not cope without pain meds. I am on 2 chronic pain lists and they are very helpful.
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  Xandria

  Lee,

  My Husband suffers from RSD which is another name for the same issue. The spasms, the pain or "fire" feeling in his foot. He has been to so many doctors.. he is hoping to go to a specialist in Maryland. The pain is what is terrible. I can barely touch the foot and he would be jumping away from it. The Foot is ice cold to the touch, it turns colors of mottled blue to mottled red. For a while they had him on Neurotonin. Now they tell him "Oh it will heal on it's own" it has been over a year in a half here folks.

  So I can understand just how wearing this can be. Hang in there and there are support groups for this out there.
  
  X.
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  Euphemism

  (((((Lady Lee))))) I can't imagine what it's like to feel that way all the time. I hope you can find some relief.
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  RAYZORBLADE

  Like a sunrise after a cloudy night.

  Like a moonrise after a cloudy day.

  Lady Lee, has a way; we feel her inspiration and spirit here, always.

  The healing, the love, the support and the listening ear, you have always provided unconditionally.

  Lady Lee: You make being HERE, worth it!

  ((((Lady Lee)))) a diamond in the rough.