Mehlisue , In my awakening period which did take a long time ,I read a book written by an ex Jesuit priest whose name I just can`t remember ,though I know he was married and lived in the suburb of Ivanhoe Melbourne Victoria Australia .
I remember this bit of info because at one time I too lived there .
If I remember correctly the title of the book was , "The rise And Decline Of Christendom " It had a profound effect on me as I could relate to what he was going through in his crisis of faith even though he was Catholic and I was a Jehovah`s Witness.
It was a book I picked up at a Library and making contact with that library didn`t get me anywhere.I`m trying other avenues now to see if I have any luck.I would love to read it again now that I am fully out and free of religion .
Welcome to this forum , its a great site I hope you stick around.
Thanks for your post Melinda