I appreciate your candor. As long as you are aware you are in hostile territory and you don't mind, then who am I to question you? I think you will find that very few people in here - if any - would ever entertain the thought of going back, even if things were to change, but you never know for sure. I hope you find what you are looking for anyway - if not here, then on another board.
The Israelites had to eat manna for forty years in the wilderness. Of course, this older group died in the wilderness and didn't get into the promised land. The Watchtower has been FEEDING the people the end of the world for over 104 years. How many have died along the way? Certainly these people that died along the way were not rebellious. Is this a lottery thing with the org?
The WTS should merge with Amway and become a multi-level marketing (pyramid) organization. This concept could be interwoven with Russell's early pyramid teachings. Some of the donations could be diverted into a rewards program for publisher's who bring in new $$ (converts). First class Hotel accomadations (for conventions), Bethel trips, and front row Kingdom hall seating could all be used as incentives. Cash-back on magazine donations might all prompt some go that extra mile. I think a small bio of the 'Top Producer" of the month could be inspiring also.
Just some thoughts. What da ya think 'Supa freak'?