Somebody talk to me (page 2)

Soledad

puternut

these feelings are inside of you, but they are not who you are. stay strong, hang in there. it will pass, believe it.

Tatiana

SIGNS YOU MAY BE SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION

* You've got enough Prozac in your purse to tranquilize King Kong.

* You really lose it whenever someone says, "Good morning."

* You spend more time in bed than a hooker at a Shriners convention.

* You keep your house so dark that mushrooms are growing in the carpet.

* Given a choice, you'd have no preference between sex or a root canal.

* On a really bad day, you wouldn't come to the door if it was Publishers Clearing House.

* You list Dr. Kevorkian as a character reference.

* Alcohol gives you strength and food settles your nerves.

* Your hands shake so badly that you can brush your teeth without any voluntary movement.

* You've cried so much that your contacts have rusted to your eyeballs.

Ok, please don't think I don't understand. I was close to suicidal before, as many here know. And the only thing right now that's keeping me from "leaving" is my beautiful children. They keep me sane and make me laugh. I just thought a joke would help. Laughter IS the best medicine.

Love....April

gumby

Hey buddy..........it WILL pass. Take it from others.......MANY OTHERS....who have been there. It's very normal to feel despondent over your life when you exit a cult such as the Witnesses. It's especially hard if you were TRUELY a dub in deep with a healthy love for god. It's devastating to learn god has no special people or group he favors. It's devasting to have every belief you had is now gone or in serious question. It's hard to feel that maybe god himself let you down.

You were an elder.......so the chances are good you fit this mold. I felt the same way for some time.......and it got better and better the more I slowly re-figured out what I would believe.

Also my friend........always remember these types of feelings are normal......and NOT a barometer of what your life is worth. let it pass.

Hugs....Gumby

codeblue

Hey Puternut:

We are here for you 24/7....call us...you are always welcome at our house whenever you want to come!!!

Mr. and Mrs. CB

new light

Puternut, brother, I feel for you. I've had days just like the one you describe. You are definitely not a freak for fantasizing about "the end." But you really have to discard such useless thoughts and focus on the positive, if you can. You're a free man, free from mental slavery and oppression at the hands of the borg. Your mind is your own again. Leaving WT is a brave decision, one that any thinking person deeply admires. Your posts on this forum are invaluable. I have personally been helped by some of your sage advice. There are hundreds more who really need your wisdom to brave their own storms. If all else fails, just hunker down and ride it out. A transition such as yours can be extremely trying, but we both know you will feel better than ever when you come out the other side victorious. Write me anytime.

love

me

codeblue

We have a guest bedroom and bathroom...on standby for you

Love,

Mr. and Mrs. CB

Valis

Ya, I've had those days P. I try to find some humor and try to make it through....A visit to the local strip club never hurts either..

Sincerely,

District Overbeer

outoftheorg

Hey Puternut! Got the blues huh. Well that is to be expected, given your situation and the losses you have experienced. Been there and lived out what you are living now. You will have repeat episodes of these feelings. But that is not going to last forever. How long they last is somewhat up to you. Others have suggested busying yourself in helping others. That is a good start. Actually keeping busy and doing the things you enjoy will work also. Do some of the things you find acceptable but you have been up to now told they are "worldly".

Having read your posts here, I think you have what it takes to do well in all aspects of your life. It is these road bumps that will hit you now and again, that will bring up the depression feelings and the feelings of being lost?

If these feelings linger on it is wise to see your doctor and get some medication. These will help to tide you over until you get past this stage.

The griefs you are having now are very difficult to deal with and this in no way, is due to any weakness on your part. It is a very normal reaction to the unfair unloving way you have been treated. This forum is very helpful and you can receive a lot of help and advice here.

However it is important that you establish a group of friends in reality. People that you can talk to face to face. This may be difficult to do, since you are used to having so called friends in a cult and may be behind on social matters.

If so, it would be wise to find a counselor and attend group counseling sessions. Sounds goofy doesn't it? Actually it is not, if we find ourselves in need of emotional help.

Having said all this, I am sure I have not told you anything you do not already know. But at times it helps to have some one point out these things and remind us of what is needed.

Your situation reminds me of my own situation 12 yrs. ago and how terrible it was for me. What I have said here, mirrors my own experience and what and where and how I got help.

Hang in there my friend. You deserve to receive all the kind and loving treatment, we all long for. I am sure you will eventually find it. I did.

It will not be easy but it is truly possible. All it takes is time. Time to work on it and time to make real friends and find and enjoy life again.

Outoftheorg-may you find all the good things this life has to offer and more.

simplesally

Puternut,

I have lots of posts left if you want to talk. I am also on messenger....IM me.

I was depressed too when I decided to stop going to meetings. I was df'd and devastated but I went back to the meetings until I could not stand the stares and silence. Seeing witnesses in public was terrible when I saw them greet strangers and shun me. I realized how hypocritical it all was.

Don't feel bad about being depressed, it is natural as long as it doesn't get too bad.

Many hugs!!!!!!!!

Kelly

Puternut

Thanks people, I know that I am not alone in this and that many of you have or have had similar feelings. I know that's comforting. What I find frustrating is, that I used to take care of others for years. And here I am finding, that there are days I can't help myself. I ask myself, what would I have said to others. And I know the answers, yet I am unable to apply them to myself.

I am used to normalcy in my life and right now my life is in turmoil, and with no direction. At least that's what I feel like today. I am trying to numb myself by staying busy. But I find I can't concentrate. My mind wanders constantly. I don't want to drink too much, because it will make me feel ucky.

Some say that I have a new start, but the question is where do I start. So I don't worry too much about the future and let it happen day by day. But realistically is scares the hell out of me to have an uncertain future. Thoughts about were they right, am I wrong? Is there a god?

it's a confusing day. Maybe I should go to bed and get some rest, maybe I'll have a vision from somewhere..................

Puternut

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