by Stefanie 37 Replies latest jw friends
This thread hits home for me.I want to pray and feel close to god.But im still too angry.If he is the god whom I have been taught he is then he seems like someone who needs constant attention, and is very selfish and mean kinda like a very spoiled child.
On the other hand I do see the beautiful things of life.I want to heal enough to believe he exists again.And to feel close to him.
But Ill first have to be able to see a different god than the god I see now.
Kat
it is very easy to see that Jesus is not saying that God will think about your prayers. He says God will grant all your prayers.
Thank God (excuse the pun) He doesn't answer everyones prayers.... Did you see the Jim Carrey film "Bruce Almight" where he gets to be God for a week and he tries to answer everyones prayers?.... very funny.
Grace, I'm sure you know by now that we all love you regardless of what you believe. Heck you could believe in the boogey man for all I care I'll still luv ya cause you are special to me you helped me a great deal when I was exiting and for that you have my eternal gratitude, sincerest luv, and deepest respect.
new light, Your welcome, glad I could help.
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Please don't waste any more energy on feelings of guilt. Do what feels right to you.
The following was written by Gandhi in 1928.... I like his 'take' on God...and maybe that translates well regarding PRAYER.... it is something to be 'felt'. Not a one-way conversation, but a respectful expression of feelings, expecting only to be heard and understood.
The Meaning of God Poem
There is an indefinable mysterious Power that pervades everything.
I feel It, though I do not see It.
It is this unseen Power which makes Itself felt and yet defies all proof,
because It is so unlike all that I perceive through my senses.
It transcends the senses....
That informing Power or Spirit is God....
For I can see that in the midst of death life persists,
in the midst of untruth, truth persists,
in the midst of darkness light persists.
Hence I gather that God is Life, Truth, Light. He is love.
He is supreme good.
But he is no God who merely satisfies the intellect if He ever does.
God to be God must rule the heart and transform it.
James thoma-- beautiful picture.....made me feel peaceful to look at it. thank you..
and the last post with the poem--very nice...
I prayed my guts out over a situation over the past couple of years--sometimes for hours on end. Many of my JW friends at the time knew of the unfair situation I was in and told me to keep on praying so I did. I kept thinking that Jehovah would send someone from the society to straighten out the situation in the cong. or at least send me a letter from the top (I sent one and they didn't respond). One JW sis asked me if I thought Jehovah didn't see what was going on? And there were ones who tried to comfort me with the fact that those who desire to live with godly devotion would be persecuted. And then perhaps I was being being tested and would show my faithfulness to Jehovah by continuing on as his witness no matter how badly the bros were treating me--just keep on praying.
After a while when nothing happened I started feeling like a big dope...then I got irritated by it all. I stopped praying. I didn't like the WT God anymore. After all he wanted me to suffer under the elders dictatorship to prove a point--but what was that point again? Why was my enduring the suffering a glorious thing that brought honor to god? I began to figure if there was an omnipotent being out there who is all powerful and loving he has better things to do than to sit around and watch me suffer. If there is a god or someone out there of that sort the one I believe in is far different than the one who hangs out at the KH... (I like the one in the last poem)
After a while when nothing happened
I'd say something very big did happen.... you're here aren't you?
