Dear Jehovahs Witnesses and EX-JW's .
Many of you may not be aware of what life is like in a Military State.
I would like to share a part of the Shame that Jehovah's Witnesses Elders in Southa Africa have to bear.
In South Africa white males during the 70's and 80's were conscripted into the army from age 16.
During the 80's at the age of 16 I was conscripted. At age 17 I was sentenced as a minor and was told I would have serve to six years prison. I was released on parole and worked with six fellow witnesses all aged 17-18 in a Hospital Morgue.
It was a state run facility and was a central Morgue for the then Apartheid police force in Central South Africa . Often I had to handle bodies of persons who had been brutally murdered/shot/stabbed/burn't alive etc. On weekends and nights I had to help in the hospital's trauma theatre which was affiliated with a squad of Riot Police/Soldiers.
I also had to remove bags of amputations, fetus' and internal organs to be incinerated. The worst was seeing dead children . We had a huge furnace called lucifer. I once contemplated suicide and thought I should just jump in ! Besides this I was mocked , harrassed and mentally tortured by the Apartheid Loyal Non-JW Hospital staff ,day in day out for years on end.
To this day I suffer from depression, nightmares and post traumatic stress disorder.
What kept me sane during this period was the knowledge that at least I wasn't supporting a vile and evil regime..APARTHEID !
Fortunately Today I still have a cheerful personality and good supportive NON JW friends and a loving EX-JW wife, who put up with my highs and my lows.
I am also free from enslavement to the WT.
None of the six of my group are still Witnesses. (Many of those from that ear aren't literally hundreds fell away) Why ????
Most tried Pioneering and Bethel , but after our experiance we were at such a terrible disadvantge in the real world due to our age, lack of education and mental trauma. The reason most left was that just making a living was so difficult and this left little time for the "Truth" because Jobs are scarce and working hours long.
Instead of the Jehovah's Witnesses Organization's Elders helping us or standing by us ....they turned on us calling us materialistic and disloyal. Even those that served as Elders and Ministerial Servants were treated like garbage !
I am proud to have stood up to an Evil regime but am ashamed of the treatment we were given by the "wolves in sheeps clothing", the so called loving Elders of Jehovahs Witnesses who instead were nothing better than Judas' and Saul's.
My reasons for leaving the WT were based on a culmination of all that I had experianced, the betrayal of the elders, betrayal of JW business partners, the harrasment (not encouragement) of fellow JW's who served with me as Elders and MS (of which I was one) and evetually seeing that all I had believed in was based on lies.
My first meeting at age 26 with the District Overseer should have been enough!! While paging through my "Sheparding the flock - Elders Manual" his tone changed as he spoke of the "Inactive Sheep" in our congregation .He launched an attack on a you Elder who was studying for a University Degree correspondance.
I clearly picked up the sentiment that in his eyes anyone who needed money (and education) that bad didn'nt need encouragement from him...this coming from a swine leech who lived off of handouts, always had freemeals and was the king of freebies !
Have you ever been a conscientious/religious objector ..have you been awakened from enslavement to the WT Cult ?
Please post and share your experiance.
Yours Sincerely
Nadsam ...PROUD APOSTATE