LOL no I am a 23 year old "old timer" JW raised in the truth never reproved or DFed. All old JWs that hang around a while know what I know. Most are just old and grey(think of the WTS evolution they lived through). They just change the laguage so they sound wise or humble. They say they are "confused about teachings", "over our heads", and "too deep for us" to disarm the noobs and the zealots that don't get the true nature of the org. After a while it all gels. You see cleary and snicker when people don't get the joke. Jehovah is a holy bigot. The problem is in the early days bigotry was cool but now you have to emphasize stuff people wana hear. They don't want a God that takes 8 people and kills the world anymore.
They want a Jesus, a Grace, and a salvation. See my "Cruel Angel Thesis". Thats the real God run for cover we are all screwed.
Thats why the watchtower is so akward and nuerotic. They know there is less salvations than witnesses (like Rutherford in 1935). They don't know how to break the news to the R&F (like you guys say ) feel if they turn the people that can't read inbetween the lines into bathroom attendants, and "keep moving" sign holders God will see they are trying to at least humor him.
It maybe black/white double think but it is for real it is how the bible was writen. I am cool with it.