You know i read this thread and thought I responed to it......but there ya go,,,,,,,the fibro fog. Yeah , I am oen of those who have delt with this "syndrome" even before it had a name.
I am so much better after leaving JW, and the stress of it all, the guilt associated with trying to be so perfect, when your body doesnt want to cooperate.....lol.
I have TMJ, moodswings, migraines , had juvilenne arthritis, still have artritis that will not leave my side for a minute, add the fibromyaligia and even I can't believe someone could be so cursed with pain problems.
I don't know if I just have a low threashold of pain, or if my pain is as bad as I think,,,,,,,but regardless it is knock me on my ass, in the bed , unable to feed myself, wishing a big rock would put me out misery kind of pain.
What I hate the most about this fibromyalgia pain is that my children dont really understand how mama can ride bikes and play with them one day, and then one day be too sick to get up and make dinner. For so many years, I was able to make myself do what my body refused to want to do , because I knew they needed me. They were babies and needed changing and bottles, now that they are older, they still need me , but I have taught them how to do some things on their own, like making a sandwich, and my daughter is a great cook . But really that is something I wanted my kids , all of them to know how to do anyway on their own. I guess because I grew up with my mom suffering the same pain, hers was so much worse than mine,,,,,,,add to that abuse of pain medications for the muscle pain she was feeling.........so I had to learn to take care of myself.
Now when I am having a bad day,,,,,,,,,, I can tell my kids.....Mama has fibromyaligia , a migraine or my arthritis is acting up , so help me out and I will be here to "walk" you thru making macn chesse, or whatever.
I guess this way I have alot of guilt taken off of myself because I can admit to them I am sick, that I have a problem that will come and go,,,,,and for them not to get upset when I have a bad day,,,,,, it will pass and I will be back to the way I usually am. But still as a mother, I wish this was not on their plate as well as mine.......but acceptance of the problems I have,,,,and knowing they are real, they have real names,,,,,,,helps me to help them.