Hi Mary,
I went last night also - I agree...it felt so cold and empty to me. I think I could count on one hand how many times the speaker actually mentioned Jesus' name. I was thinking when I got home that maybe I went in with the wrong attitude, but it was just so very cold and I learned NOTHING from it. If you were a stranger that walked off the street...I do not think that you would have benefitted from that service. I did stir things up though, I have this thing about smelling wines, I LOVE the smell of it...I took a wiff and caught so many stares! My hubby, who is also inactive, gave me the hardest time! I said to him afterwards "what, is it a sin to smell the wine since I am not of the annointed". He was all uptight thinking I was going to get in trouble...and I just didn't care. Of course of the brothers came up to me later with the brand name of the wine for me in case I wanted to buy a bottle!
It has been over a year since I have gone to a meeting and to take a step back and sit through a service and get nothing out of it completely upset me - I just don't see the same attraction that I felt when I first studied. I am not lacking faith, I just feel lost.
Garnet