Would you have left sooner? (page 2)

FMZ

In a really weird kind of way... I appreciate the time I was in the Org. There were certain things and skills I learned in there that I don't think I would have known without ever being in the Troof. I am currently trying to think positive things about my time in there. All I can say is it made me what I am today, and I think I like me. Sure there was lots of crap that caused me lots of problems, but when it came to the crunch, I ended up where I wanted to be.

Would I leave earlier? Probably not (I can't believe I'm even typing this) if it affected my outcome in life. If I could be the same person and never have been in the Org, then yes. I enjoy my relationship with God that the Org helped me recognize (though in a screwy way), and God has helped me many times in my life.

Deus Fortitudo Mea

(God is my strength)

Hmm... it's interesting what you can find out about yourself just by someone asking a blanket question.

Puternut

No I wouldn't have. I wanted to make sure I had all the facts straight. I was hearing a lot of things, but needed to be sure before I made my decision. The timing wasn't right. I wanted to know that I gave it my all, and there were no doubts.

I have done my time in the borg, and it was an experience from which I learned, where not to be.

Puternut

got my forty homey?

I left as soon as I COULD. Did the pioneer and Bethel thing and after that, I'd say about 2 months I was gone, set up in my own apartment and so happy not having to attend anymore stinking meetings!

Xena

hhhmmm I left for a bit when I was younger but went back because I still thought it was the "truth" I suppose...and it made my family happy for me to be in it.....

Now...knowing all I know....it would still be difficult to leave. My parents were dead when I left this time...I don't know if I would be able to handle it if they shunned me....it's difficult enough sometimes with my sisters shunning me.

I sometimes mourn for the lost years...I feel like I could have done a lot more with my life...but ultimately it made me who I am now....and I kinda like that person

Interesting question Nos

ozziepost

I feel like I could have done a lot more with my life...but ultimately it made me who I am now....and I kinda like that person

There's a lot of truth in what you say. We've talked about this with many ex-dubs and have come to the conclusion that it was for a purpose - life's a journey.

Enjoy.

Cheers, Ozzie

got my forty homey?

Your right Ozzie, life is a journey, a one way bus trip to Palookaville!

Carmel

I wanted to leave the day I was baptized, but at age 12 the options were not there. It took me over two years to make my break, but it landed me in juvenile hall but my councilor took my side and put me in a foster home! would of loved to have had that option two years earlier..

carmel

Nosferatu

I am currently trying to think positive things about my time in there.

I guess it's different for everyone. I tried to find positive aspects about my whole experience with the JWs. I can't find any. I wanted out ever since I was introduced to it when I was only 5 years old. I hated sitting in with my mother during her bible study. I had to sit still for an hour and do nothing.

However, there was a time period where I was trying to get enjoyment out of it. It was when my father was studying. The burden kept getting heavier, and I wanted out. My JW years were full of depression and abuse.

I'm glad you were able to get some positive from it. Many of us were much less fortunate.

FMZ

Nos, it's all about the proverbial silver lining. Even the most depressing and heartbreaking situations can somehow make us into better people. If someone very close to us died, and we never told them that we love them... it is a very traumatic thing, BUT we will be more likely in the future to tell people that are close to us that we love them.

And all that sitting around in the KH? I have calculated I roughly spent 4320 hours sitting at the KH in my life, which is 180 days total. That is half a year of my life "wasted"! But you know what? I learned the ability to sit for an extended period of time... lol. It may be a small thing, but it is a silver lining nonetheless.

I have had my experiences in the Org with depression, in fact it has left me with a permanent feeling of self-worthlessness. Sometimes all we can do is say "what's done is done... at least I got something out of it". Otherwise that depression really takes over.

FMZ

Nadsam

Personally I didn't just wake up one day and think..hey I'm tired of this bull !

It was a culmination of disappointments stretched over 30yrs in the borg that led to my realization that this was just another cult.

Looking back I clearly remember times when I had had enough, but being the eternal optimist that I am I actually prolonged my pain.

Leaving the cult was almost as joyous as an Alcoholic quitting booze and experiancing Sobriety and clarity for the first time

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