an elder stepped up and got right in my face and was not yelling but talking very loud so all could hear , and man he went off on me saying" jehovahs children learn right from wrong ,it makes them stronger on what to do and not do
What a fool.
... and yes as a JW one has to control not only word and deed but also random thoughts, that swoosh back and forth across the mind without direct will.
A brother I knew was that frightened by the mind police and eventually God, that he constantly swore in his mind when reading the Bible. He developed an obsessive compulsive disorder and ended up on a pile of meds.
Those who attacked me for speaking out of turn occasionally were often the most hypocritical when one examined their own lifestyle and general daily practise.
The WTBS can be a frightening spiritual retreat for the vulnerable.