dh, did I miss something or are you gonna share with us how your life has changed?
my life has changed in that i am now i am ten years older, i left school around this time ten years ago, i think essentially it's the same just now i have a lot more experiences.
when i was 16 i was not married, had no kids, liked experiencing new things, loved music and being creative, spent a lot of time alone, life felt meaningless but i looked forward to the future, and at 16 i didn't have too many commitments.
now i am 26, i'm still not married, still have no kids, still like the same stuff as when i was 16, still spend a lot of time alone, still have hardly any commitments and still have a lot of years to go, life still feels totally meaningless, only now the future doesn't look bright, it just looks just certain.
for me the last ten years seem to be just more more more of the same same same, though i have to say i have done quite a lot in those ten years, i laugh about my life sometimes because it doesn't seem real, it's more like a jigsaw puzzle. at 18 i left the jw's, but it wasn't really a big deal at all. i guess my life has undergone some extreme ups and downs, it's funny to think that at 16 i wanted to handmake furniture for a living, and now it's something i think about perhaps doing for a hobby when i retire (still got some time to go before then).
when i was 16 i had such an insane unstoppable drive to do things that i could not afford to do, but now that i can afford to do those things i no longer have the drive or desire.
i think the major change in the past ten years is that at 16, even though i felt bad, i felt like there was something bright to look forward to, like i had time to make it happen, now i know that life is just life and we just have to get on with it.
i guess if i have to pick any single thing that has changed in the last ten years through all of the shit, it's that now i am more grounded.