Hi gidgetgirl, thanks for youropinion, and caring words.
I kinda feel that you missed the point a little there though - not once have I blamed someone else in my story for my mistakes, and I take full responsibility for them. I couldn't have posted such an 'exposing ' story if I hadn't accepted reponsibility.
My biggest issue here, is that during an emotionally, spiritually, and psychologically distressing time, instead of hearing my words and listening to my views, and offering much needed support, I was given a firing squad!!! As one other member commented - "it appears they already had their mind made up" and they had.
Just to add to the story too, I did challenge the decision, and had an appeal committee to sit through too. I poured my heart out to them, explaining why I could not go back to such a destructive, manipulative relationship, only for them to say at the end of it "we understand your feelings, and can see why you cannot return to your wife. However, we are not here to overturn the decision of the elders, just to hear your side of events! What a complete Fing waste of time!!! I might as well have saved myself the indignity and embarrassment of talking to complete strangers about intimate sides of my life, and just walked away.
A while after my DF'ing, another 'pebble' commented to my Mum how my wife had told him that 'she was going to do everything in her power to make sure I was DF'd'. Who knows what other things she told them - true or untrue
Satan is after all of us right??? Well, he used a very powerful tool to get me (if indeed that is what means by not being a member of the JW Organisation) and if he wants me that bad - Good on him. At least someone does!!!!
