Why do they still have an effect on me???????

by BLISSISIGNORANCE 18 Replies latest jw experiences

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  BLISSISIGNORANCE

  I was at work today and I noticed a tradesman walking through the building wearing a t-shirt with a company name on it. I knew it was a dub's trade name and felt sick in the stomach. I didn't recognize the man wearing the shirt and thought maybe the business had been sold to someone else.

  At lunch time I sat near a door and saw the boss of the company.............yes, it was the dub!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I don't know exactly how to explain my mixed feelings but anger was at the top of the list. This brother was one of the servants who knew about my child's sexual abuse yet chose to support the pedophile and his family because they were all friends.

  I felt like asking him if he felt happy that the pedo (who has since been df'ed for smoking not sexual abuse) was going to be reinstated and whether he would let his children go on calls with him?

  It really upsets me that they still make me feel like this. I just want to hurt them somehow, the way they hurt my family.

  It's not like I spend alot of time thinking about them and the WTS. My life is great now! But when I see them, especially the ones who sold themselves short for an organization rather than do what is right..............I just want to tell them what I think!

  Anyhow, the weekend is just around the corner and I can do whatever I want whereas he can't!

  Cheers, Bliss
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  LyinEyes

  Hey Bliss,,,,,,,,sorry you had those terrible feelings come up, I get those from time to time. Usually is is when I see the Kingdom Hall on the way to the store,,,,, I think of all the miserable years I spent there. I can really see how you are still so angry over the abuse that went on, I don't think that kind of anger and pain will ever go away. When your child is hurt you want to hurt those who hurt them, that is natural. I wish that every pedophile had to pay for what they have done,,,,maybe in time some of them will,, but until then it hurts to see them go on , with people thinking they are wonderful , if only they knew huh?

  ((((((( Bliss and family)))))))
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  BLISSISIGNORANCE

  ((((((((((((((((Thanks LyinEyes)))))))))))))))))
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  Fe2O3Girl

  Bliss, you wouldn't be human if you didn't feel angry and betrayed about that kind of horrendous complicity.

  I hope you have a lovely weekend and a great time with your niece.

  ((((((Big hug)))))
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  bull01lay

  Hi Bliss...

  weekend is just around the corner and I can do whatever I want whereas he can't!

  For now you're doing the best things possible - not thinking about them often, and looking on the positive side. Hope your angry feelings soon subside - they can really get you knotted up inside can't they...

  Remember - if the WTS is wrong as we all think - then think of all the things they've missed out on in life.. if the WTS is right... do you really think a loving God would accept people who condone paedophilia (that is what they've done by keeping quiet) into His new world ?? this 'servant', and the other conspirators who kept quiet, are wasting their lives. Full Stop!!

  ((((Big hug from the Sunny UK))))

  Bull!
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  blondie

  Bliss, I haven't felt that way for awhile, mostly because I haven't had any contact with the JWs that would provoke that feeling in me. I try to defuse it by writing down what I wold say to them and I talk about it with others in my abuse support group. While not JWs, they understand the frustration of seeing abusers and their supporters seemingly get away with things.

  Blondie (((hugs)))
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  Jim_TX

  ((((((((((Bliss))))))))))

  "I felt like asking him if he felt happy that the pedo (who has since been df'ed for smoking not sexual abuse) was going to be reinstated and whether he would let his children go on calls with him?

  It really upsets me that they still make me feel like this. I just want to hurt them somehow, the way they hurt my family."

  Ya know... you didn't mention if you were eating lunch with a workmate or not... if you were... or do... I know it is painful to think about, but you might try letting your workmate know - for their own safety - about this fella and what he did.

  Then next time something like this happens, you can let your friend know - and perhaps in a loud voice - loud enough for others present to hear - say something like, "This is the man who is protecting that child molester I told you about. Do NOT let them in your home, when they come door-knocking!" ... or some such.

  That way, you are not talking to him - directly - but he will get the point. Especially if you are making a public display of it.

  Like the cockroaches they are, they will run for the cover of darkness. (Of course, from their point of view... they are 'suffering persecution' - *rolls eyes*)

  Regards,

  Jim TX
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  Doubtfully Yours

  I've heard that "you can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave the WTBTS".

  DY
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  Sassy

  I think this is natural for you to feel this way. It is like trigger words.. his appearance was a reminder of a very very wrong wrong wrong thing that he was party too... You have every reason to feel anger.. and resentment.
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  frenchbabyface

  ... (((Bliss))) ...

  I'm sorry that those people are still alive and not in jail where they should be !

  BE PROUD OF YOURSELF YOU TOOK OVER !