Welcome Chok, It's never too late to enrole in the school of "life". You've been a perfect subject for the cult Even after you're df'd you allowed it to control your thinking. Don't feel alone, we (most of us at least) have left over baggage from our time spent going to boring meetings, peddling worthless literature and recruiting new zombies for the "great publishing trust" in the sky masquerading as a religion.
I hope all goes well with your new partner for you and your children's sake. Like you, I've found that the "worldlies" are much more loving, accepting and gracious than my own dub family and their elitest collegues at the Kindumb Hall.
cheers,
carmel