When Xmas came around, my dad was not going to be there. He was going to be in Northern Cal with his wife and see my sister. I cried, I admit it, I told him it had been 12 years since I celebrated and it was my daughter's first Xmas and how could he miss it? He said he was sorry and hadn't thought of it that way. He spent Xmas Eve with my sister and flew in Xmas morning with his wife. He was the best present we had that year.
My mom sent lots of Xmas decorations this year since I was for sure totally out of JW's. My neighbor helped me shop for more and helped decorate.
Sad I missed all the years, but my daughter won't miss a holiday now.