Thankyou Lady Lee. That's obe of the most concise lists ive read, not too painful to read but very accurate.
My memory of the scar on my foot was one that always bothered me. I had physical evidence for it but no idea how it got there. I still don't have the whole memory - no details yet. Just enough to know what caused it and how it was done and by whom.
Cant get out of italics now, sorry...:s .It was only last year that I recognised my ribs wernt symetrical and during councelling I recalled the end of the incedent that led to them being very badly broken ( but not attended to leading to malformation due to fusion) but not the actual act, just the result.Very odd, I'd rather not push for the rest too, it'll come when its ready.I always get upset about it in the summer as i want to wear a bikini but feel self concious so always wear swim suits.
Last year I was obsessed with finding my rapist as he'd been spotted by a friend of mine..but I couldnt find him although I tried for weeks...i'm glad I did'nt..but know it'll keep happening.I wish i knew how to stop that.
I still have a few lost pieces of that jigsaw and don't particularily want to know. I got very upset the day before yesterday as I had to drive my daughter to 'the village it happened in , I havnt been since that night 24 years ago and was physically sick as I drove away.I really thought I could do it.Guess im not as strong as I thought I was.
