As soeone raised in the truth my whole life I am struggling with a basic doctrinal issue.
The issue has to do with universal sovreignty and the ransom sacrifice. Let me try to illustrate by way of analogy:
Suppose you are a parent (a loving parent and your child is more precious to you than anything else) - any one of us right? Ok now suppose you have a party at your house. Lets say you take a friendly bet with your neighbor that the guests will not mke a noise after 10pm otherwise you will have to send your child next door to be killed.
Sounds really absurd right? I agree. No one would take a risk like that. But isn't that what we are taught Jehovah did?
He set things up so that Adam and Eve could have "freedom of choice". But if he is almighty and he is all knowing why would he risk the life of his son on their "freedom of choice"? I just can't come to terms with that. Surely he knew Adam and Eve would fail....(yes I know he chose not to forknow the future in this instance - per the insight book). Surely he knew the RISK?
I struggle very deeply with this issue - and its not just a Witness doctrine issue (it applies to all "Chrsitianity")- it has gotten so bad I am tending to be agnostic in my beliefs now.
I sat at the meorial this year and thought about this all night. It makes it very hard for me to be grateful for the "ransom sacrifice". Not one of us would risk the life of our child in this way - especially if we were the one making the rules.
I say this meaning no disrespect at all but it seems to be almost silly (probably because I am so confused in trying to make sense of it).
What am I not seeing?
Thanks for your thoughts on this.