When I first wandered into this den of liars, deceivers and half-truthers, I did not know what to expect. My experience is that you are all the most excellent folks I have ever cyber-met.
I have learned so much from being a member of this forum, from all of you, and I wish you a lot of success and happiness. I have come across old JW acquaintances and I am glad you made it out in one piece. I have experienced so much growth in so little time, it is hard to remember exactly how I thought and what I knew before I read so many of your experiences/posts. What an eye-opener! It is good to be able to forget, although not completely, what it was like being bound the dysfunctional belief structure of a controlling cult. " Liberation " does not even convey how I am feeling these days. It is better than that. It is " Red Bull -ish" for you have all helped to give me wings.
Thank you, Simon, for putting this thing together, for it has been such a great help, and there should be some kind of award of recognition for what you have done here for so many.
I am moving on and will not be dropping by so often.
Something good has been happening to me inside lately and a fire seems to be burning in my soul that is propelling me along an exciting path. I am going to stay on that path and see what comes next. I have been so busy lately and it is good to feel so alive in my work and with my relationships. I feel as though I have beat down all the lingering JW?s in my life and they are leaving me alone, leaving my kids alone, and walking way around me instead of trying to lay their garbage on me. The incredible shaming giant in my mind that was the organization of JW?s is nothing now but a mere chuckle to me. I now feel something like a little baby who laughs whenever their parent goes "boo!".
I have found a part of myself I never knew existed, a part I only fantasized about realizing. I am thirty-seven years old, and I am on the threshold of starting my life and truly living it. It has been said that you can?t get over the past by reliving it over and over again, and this board sometimes does that to me. It sometimes puts me in that place I never want to be. Going over things in my mind and learning what kind of positive meaning to give it is the only reward for reexamining past experiences, and it is the only means by which you can move on with a lighter load . I think I am in that place now.
I am currently working on some recordings for those who asked to hear me sing, LOL. Don?t expect much. I will let you all know where to go to listen just a soon as I have them edited for my web page.
So I am getting on with it.
If anyone of you would like to drop me an email, please do so. My email is [email protected] I would love to hear from you and I will happily return the note.
Best regards to all of you.
Corvin