Do you have "cold sweats"?

by onacruse 21 Replies latest jw friends

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  onacruse

  Over the last 2 years, especially early on, as I was "forced" to finally face the facts about my life-long religion, I had many a nightmare, waking up in a cold sweat, fearing that I'd lost my hope for everlasting life, fearing that Armageddon was just around the corner, wondering if I'd made the right decisions.

  Perhaps the worst of all was walking away from the Bible, insofar as it being carte blanche "Word of God." Then, of course, comes along the idea of the ransom, etc...'reject Jesus, and you've rejected life.'

  I'd be lying to say that, even now, I don't still have some little nigglings that make me wonder.

  However, the days of the "cold sweat" are long gone.

  You?

  Craig
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  Stefanie

  waking up in a cold sweat, fearing that I'd lost my hope for everlasting life, fearing that Armageddon was just around the corner, wondering if I'd made the right decisions.

  I still, to this day have dreams of fire coming down from the sky. My flesh burning, and my babies on fire...

  Its been three years! I only wonder how long its going to take for it to stop!

  In life at this moment I am not happy, and i wonder if that has anything to do with it, or if it has been burned into my mind forever.. Will i live to be an 80 year old woman having these dreams?
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  Poztate

  Never had any cold sweats or regrets when I turned away from this LIE over 22 years ago. I saw them for what they were and this was before the internet existed.

  I must say when I got my first computer one of the first things that I searched for was JW's and was amazed at all the truth out there.

  I spent many a happy hour on my 28.8 dialup conection finding all the facts and details that I did not know.The internet is the best thing that could happen for persons looking for information.

  Even the events of 9/11 did not cause me to think that this could be the big "A" It is hard to believe that is almost 3 years ago. I now believe if there is a god and he does have a plan I will let him (or her) work it out and let me know.
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  onacruse

  ((stef)) Yes, it will pass

  Poz:

  Never had any cold sweats or regrets when I turned away from this LIE over 22 years ago.

  That's what made me start this thread: Kate and I were talking about it this evening, and she said the same thing--no such feelings. And many others I've talked with have said the same thing; it fascinates me, and yet at the same time bewilders me. Some people seem to be able to walk away, absolute cold-turkey, from the WTS, with nary a hesitation or doubt, done deal. Others of us seem to have gone through such torture.

  I guess it's a matter of how thoroughly we were infected.
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  Poztate

  Hi Craig.

  With me it was as if the lightbulb went off (new light)

  It was black and white and I did not have a single doubt.I walked out of the kingdom hall after a dispute before the meeting with a CO that was visiting. No answers then...or anytime after that except wait on jehovah and obey the FDS....BS... I knew then that they just had garbage to feed.

  Poz.
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  Country Girl

  No, but I still get the night terrors re: Armagheddon. And amazingly, it's a colorful version of what I saw in the Paradise Lost book... <quivers>

  Country Girl
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  Mac

  Nope

  mac
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  StinkyPantz

  Mac...
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  Been there

  Years ago I did. Then only occasionally. Since I came here a couple years ago, any guilt that may have lingered is gone.

  Do hot flashes count?
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  fleaman uk

  Yes i must admit i do get a terrible dread sometimes about the future!Even tho i dont believe a word about the religion,its still at the back of my mind.Death,destruction and Armageddon...it was lovely learning all that as a Child ....