Soon after I decided that this was not the truth and wanted out, I was appointed an elder. The struggle to come to the the realization about the Wt was difficult and I feared form my emotional sanity. So HS in its immense wisdom made the appointment to complicate my life futher. I attempted to not accept the appointment but the elders would not take no for an answer. Later I attempted to resign, same answer. I moved to another state, a letter followed recommending me to be an elder in the new congregation. When the HS makes an appointment it is presistent...
Fortunatally, I was able to say no, and begin the fading and healing process.