Dearest Teej... may you have peace, dear one!
By the spirit of my Father that is in me, holy spirit, by means of my Lord, His Son, JAHESHUA MISCHAJAH, I will respond to your sincere questions:
How do people like me tune in to god?
God is a spirit, Todd. And so, it is with the SPIRIT that you see, touch, taste, smell... and hear... that which is spiritual. But first, you must have faith, and faith means experiencing something with your SPIRIT... that you cannot with your flesh.
Do we have to or does god figure out our "language"?
Initially, when communicating with you, God... or rather Christ, sounds much like you. This is so that you understand what is being said to you. If he were to come with a different voice... you might be frightened. If he were to come with a different languge, you might not understand. But when speaking, he communicates with you in the same manner that you communicate with others. As your discussions progress, however, you begin to hear his voice as quite distinct from yours... like 'many waters' or multi-dimensional. It is always calm, cool and collected. He doesn't 'trip' like we do, no matter what he is saying, even if its discipline. He always speaks in love, even if you are in need of 'refinement' due to a nakedness or uncleanness of heart that he has 'exposed'.
Why is it that some like you and Saul of Tarsus "see a great light," hear clear voices and get smacked on the forehead and schmucks like me never even see a flicker or hear a whisper?
Regarding the voices, you all hear them, too. You just try to find some physical or scientific explanation for it, or simply DISMISS it, rather that EXERCISING faith that it is indeed what it is. Too much like 'crazy' to do that, right? With regard to the light and getting 'smacked on the forehead', Paul was 'given' what HE needed to increase his faith... and I was given what I needed. My understanding from my Lord, however, is that we would both believe that it was WHAT it was, rather than dismiss it or attempt to explain it physically.
Remember, there were men there WITH Paul... and they too heard what he heard. What, though, did they DO about it? Most likely, tried to forget about it, promised each other not to talk about it or tell anyone, 'cause folks would think they were crazy. Who WANTS to be though crazy? But you know, folks are always wanting to run around CALLING others crazy.
How do I go about finding the right channel, or is it that there's something wrong with me and god would rather not have me in his company for all eternity?
The word of my Lord to you is "KEEP seeking, KEEP asking and KEEP knocking." Show him that you want it, Todd. But let me tell you this: They can read hearts; you CAN'T fool them. If you are not sincere, or if you are but are wanting to receive the spirit of God, holy spirit... and its gifts... including 'discernment of inspired utterance'... in order to bring glory to yourself, to have people think YOU are 'special'... rather than it is HE that is special and HE that is to be glorified... and to lead others to yourself, others like you or some 'religious' organization for the purpose of 'fleecing' them...
... rather than for the SOLE purpose of offering to them FREE what you yourself would have received FREE... It will not occur.
So, what do you need to do?
1. ASK...
2. Out of a CLEAN heart and pure motive (which means LISTENING when he tells you of your uncleanness and impurity and 'leaven', which is hypocrisy... and work to remove such...)
3. In FAITH (you have to believe He is, and will grant what you ask for - Luke 11:13)
Could it be that god called me and I either wasn't listening or didn't understand?
Absolutely. Most likely, it was both... not that you weren't listening, but you DIDN'T listen when He instructed you with regard to what YOU needed to do... and/or didn't understand that it was indeed YOU He was speaking to and instructing, and instead, tried to 'cleanse' someone else. Take the 'rafter' out of your OWN eye... first.
Does he call only once
No. How many times did he call Samuel, before Samuel realized it was Him? Indeed, did not Eli have to TELL Samuel who it was that was calling him? And why, since indeed he was the high priest, did ELI not 'hear' God calling Samuel? Why was it only Samuel... a child age about 3 to 5... the only one who heard?
... and if we miss it then it's just too bad?
We don't 'miss' it. We 'refuse' it. "How much I wanted to gather you like a hen gathers her chicks. But you... didn't WANT it." Judas... 'refused' it. Adam and Eve... refused it. Pharaoh... refused it. The scribes and Pharisees... refused it. All who RECEIVE him... will 'gain' him. The Spirit and the Bride KEEP saying, to ANY who are thirsting, to ANY who are hearing, to ANY who 'wish' it...
"Come! Take 'life's water'... free!"
Most, however, have been grossly misled... by RELIGION... that such invitation only goes out to a few. That is true in that there is only a FEW... wishing, hearing and thirsting. But of those, ALL can 'drink'. If then, YOU are wishing and thirsting to drink... and thus, HEAR the invitation... you, too, can come and received the 'water of life', holy spirit, FREE. It is those who are NOT wishing, thirsting and hearing, who have 'shut up the kingdom of the heavens' before YOU... telling YOU... that such 'covenant', one for life... is not offered to YOU. That... is a lie... and is from the 'father' of the lie, for he does not WISH you to gain life. Thus his agents, the 'offspring of vipers', do HIS 'will'... and deny you and millions of others access into that kingdom, wherein lies the Tree of Life, from which ANYONE who eats of it, may live forever.
Read this, Todd, and then let me know what it says to YOU... and what you've been TOLD:
John 6:48-56
Is there but one chance to catch the train, or does it come by another time?
It comes through... each GENERATION. It stays... for a 'generation'... and then passes on. You have the opportunity... during your lifetime... to get on the 'train'... and you can get on it two ways:
1. By becoming a PART of Israel, by means of entering into the NEW Covenant between God and Israel, mediated by Christ and ratified by his flesh and blood, which is available to the fleshly descendants of Abraham AND to the nations, those that 'go with' Israel... and which acceptance is demonstrated by eating the flesh and blood of Christ...
2. Or by doing good TO Israel, as did Rahab. For her, by means of her FAITH... as demonstrated NOT by being in the covenant, or being circumcised, but showing 'good' to God, by showing good to His people in hiding the Israelite spies, she DEMONSTRATED that she knew JAH was the true God... and thus received a blessing.
The first of these is not open only to 144,000... but to ALL of 'earthling' man. That number is merely the amount of 'slots' in the kingdom priesthood GUARANTEED to Abraham's seed. Since they, for the most part defaulted on their 'covenant' with God, He ensured that His promise to Abraham would not go ungranted. Thus, He GAVE 144,000 seats, 12,000 each for each tribe from 'among the sons of Israel', excluding Dan and double for Joseph. The REMAINDER of the seats at my Lord's table in his kingdom, thrones, are given to the nations, in an amount NO man is able to number.
Once your life in this 'world' has ended, though, you have no other opportunity to fulfill any of these means for gaining entry into the kingdom.
I'm serious with this.
Yes, I know you are... for my Lord has said to me that you are. He can read your heart... I cannot. I must simply believe what he tells me. And I do.
Why do some have these visions and receive a "calling" and not others?
Because some have faith 'to the preserving alive of the soul'... like Noah who heard the command the build the ark, even though no one else did, including his family... and did 'just so'... and some don't.
I am your servant, Teejay, as I am servant to the entire Household of God, Israel, and any that would 'go with' them. If I can be of service to you... all you need do is let me know. I would tell you first, to approach my Father, through my Lord and in his name, and ask what it is your heart desires. But ask, in faith, not doubting... and with a clean heart. That simply means, don't try to fool Him... for you cannot. Acknowledge who and what you REALLY are... and go from there.
I bid you peace, and I am...
YOUR servant and a slave of Christ,
SJ