Hi Plugin,
First off, I wish you the best in your university studies, and second I think you've done a fine job at keeping yourself from seriously being screwed up by the JWs. You've been free from their behavioural control and ongoing reinforcement for a number of years.
You can get rid of all your fears, by closely considering the Org's teaching of "newlight". The truth is first one thing, but then the complete opposite, but ohh.....wait.....incoming message....yep....yep....its the first thing again. God can't give it to us accurately the first time? Maybe the problem is on the receiving end?
I'd recommend Quotes' excellent site.
If you do reconsider your stand on "anti-jw" lit, then I'd take the advice of so many posters here and read Crisis of Conscience. The book Orwellian World of Jehovah's Witnesses will also give you some insight into how the Org trys to affect a dub's thinking. You can then go about countering those methods and you'll soon be fear free.