I posted this in another thread a few months ago, and offer it here hoping it will ease some of the grief you must feel. It is always saddening to be separted from those we love. When we believe the separation will be longer, or permanent, we are saddened even more. There are many, many different ideas about what happens after the body dies. The Watchtower Society taught that our body was all that there was of us, and that when the body died and decayed, we only exist "in Jehovahs memory". However, this teaching, like most of the rest of their dogma, was not based on any observation of the natural world, but rather on their own interpretation of their own translation of the writings of men who lived centuries ago. When we actually observe the natural world, we see that nothing goes to waste, ever. Matter breaks down, and is reconstructed into other forms of matter. The exact same atoms which make up your body today were forming part of the body of someone else last year, perhaps the cow which provided meat for a hamburger you ate, or the tree which used its own cellulose to form the apple you ate. The oxygen present in your body, both as a gas or as part of the structure of your tissues, was once part of someone else. The life force combines atoms into complex forms, which eventually break down, and those same atoms are recombined again into other forms. Over time, those forms tend to become more complex, so life forms today are more complex than those which were forming 4 billion years ago. The Watchtower Society used to teach us that evolution was "dishonoring to God". Perhaps this is what they believed, but Charles Darwin didn't think so. He wrote "There is a grandeur in this view of life...having originally been breathed by the Creator into a few forms, or into one; and that whilst the planet has gone cycling on...from so simple a beginning endless forms most beautiful and most wonderful have been, and are being evolved." On the topic of the 'soul', I tend to agree with Solomon, who prayed that he would be granted wisdom. Solomon wrote "Men and beasts have the same ending. One dies exactly like the other, as they have the same spirit, so that there is no superiority of one over the other. All end up the same, all are made from the earth, and all return to the earth. Who can say that the spirit of a man rises, or that the spirit of an animal descends?" Ecclesiastes 3:19-21. Solomon clearly distinguishes between the physical body and the "spirit" as two different things. If the material making up the physical body are constantly being recycled, what about the "spirit"? Is there any reason to believe this would be different, especially since Solomon states that human "spirit" and animal "spirit" is the same? Personally, I view 'spirit' or 'soul' as something like a conscious fluid. It exists in a vast ocean which fills the Universe. Within the ocean, there is no 'you' and 'me' there is only 'us'. Within the ocean, all knowledge and memories are shared. Everything incarnate as a physical being has a portion of this conscious fluid inside it. However, when this fluid is 'in' an incarnated body, it is separted from the remainder of the ocean, just as you may go to the shore of a lake or sea, and fill a vessel with water. While contained in the vessel, the fluid is not in complete communication with the 'ocean' from which it came. It may still be aware of the ocean, and even have imperfect communication with the ocean, but as long as the vessel contains it, it is not 'at one' with the ocean. At the point of physical death, the fluid is 'poured out' of the vessel, and eventually flows back to the ocean, and becomes at one with it. If another vessel is dipped into the ocean, the chances of filling it with exactly the same droplets that made up your soul are vanishingly small. However, each droplet that was 'you' in a previous incarnation still carries your full set of memories. Think of a starfish. If it is cut into pieces, each piece remembers what the rest of the creature was like, and will grow into a complete starfish. Also think of a hologram which contains an image. If you cut a hologram in half, each piece will still contain the full image. Each droplet of soul is like a hologram of your entire set of memories. So the next incarnation may have a little bit of yourself, as well as many others. As I write this, some of the fluid forming 'my' soul has been in other vessels, which is why I may, at times, have memories of past lives, and why someone else might conceivably also have a memory of living as the same person for instance, it is possible that I could have some of the soul which was in the vessel we call Marco Polo, but someone else could also have some of Mr. Polo as well, and many people probably do. If I have even one drop of his 'soul', then I can possibly recall him as a past life, due to the holographic properties of the fluid. The ocean is very large, and some of the fluid which I contain may be experiencing it's first incarnation in my vessel this time around. Some believe that the soul ocean chooses to experience a physical incarnation as a learning experience. Perhaps we have 20% previously incarnated soul, and 80% soul which has never been incarnated. Perhaps the ratio is different in different people. People, animals, protista, plants, fungi, bacteria, even virus, ANYTHING alive contains a portion of this fluid, the amount depending on the size and complexity of their nervous system. The ocean is constantly being borrowed from, and fluid previously having been borrowed is constantly flowing back to rejoin and become one with the ocean. This is part of the significance of the tarot card 'The Star' in which water is poured back to join the 'ocean' of Universal Consciousness". By becoming 'at one' even in a limited sense with that ocean, spiritual illumination can be gained. Earth is said to be 4.6 billion years old, and to have had simple but recognizable life forms for 3.6 billion of those years. Humans have only been around for 2 million years or so, depending on how closely you define humans (some fundamentalists would say only 6000 years). So, into what bodies did 'soul' incarnate before there were humans? Are we to think that obviously intelligent creatures, with distinctive personalities such as gorillas, chimps, dogs, whales, porpoises, elephants, cats, etc, have no souls? I believe that soul incarnates into whatever is available, and will continue to do so for a long time. We are not the final word in the development of physical 'vessels' to contain soul, only one of the most recent. Bright Blessings gaiagirl