Wow, Thanks for all of your kind words. I am actually very sad about leaving. I know how hard it's going to be and I dread going through it. My mother is the 'QUEEN' in all of our lives and she will not let me go without a fight. I love her very much and I hate to hurt her but I know I must do this for my own sanity. The reason I have started on this journey out is because one of my children became very ill and needed a surgery and the blood issue arose. My husband and I did not call the Liason committee because we wanted to make our own decisions and we didn't want the entire circuit to know our business, because we all know that confidentiality with the elders is a joke. Anyway, trying to be the strong, loyal witnesses that we were expected to be, we refused the transfusion. Needless to say, they got a court order the rest you all can imagine. It was one of the most stressful times I've ever known. He stayed in the hospital for many months and actually received many transfusions over that time. He is now doing fine and we never let anyone in our congregation know about the tranfusions. They knew he was ill but because the hospital was in another state no one was able to go to the hospital (thank goodness), they just got whatever little information we gave them. Once he was back home, all of the nosey elders and elder's wives did not want to know how good he was doing, only, "did he get a blood transfusion?" I dodged their questions and I still have never told anyone. We don't want to be interrogated because we did not call the Liason committee and follow the "arrangement." I have never been the regular pioneering, zealous, commenting three or four times in the Watchtower Study 'type'. I have always had doubts, Now I am following through on them.
I hope I will learn to stop using the "Pure Language", you know we all sound alike and use the same words. I am tired of it, I feel like I've been made a fool of.
Thanks for listening to me ramble.
